Here are the things that are hard.
Using my voice.
Using my voice and making it loud enough for you to hear.
Using my voice, making it loud, and trusting that you will notice me.
Trusting you to notice me, and look at me, and see me for who I am.
Trusting you (I don't)
Wide open spaces.
Here are the things that are not hard.
Sitting outside in the quiet dark time, breathing in cold air and second hand smoke.
Sitting outside on a concrete step.
Sitting outside, with you.